Heres a little bit of my history…
I grew up a happy child .. my environment was a little stressful with my parents fighting and arguing all the time… I remember thinking I wish they would just get a divorce. Besides that I had alot of friends and alot of fun with them.. I was kind of a class clown, very social..
Lets see… It all started at the end of middle school I started getting stressed at home alot from my parents so I would go out with my friends to smoke weed and get away from the stress. One day I tried smoking meth, for a total of 2 times that weekend. Up until then smoking weed had been fun and relaxing… but over time I started to become withdrawn from school and I would always ditch to go get high with friends.. I had still made some new friends but I wasnt as open around people. I started just going through the motions of school.. well things started to get worse.. after becoming withdrawn from strangers. I remember showing up to class high and hearing people talking about me. I became paranoid and stopped going to school, ..instead covinving a close group of friends to ditch with me and get high everyday. well eventually when i got high around them i would hear them talk trash about me too.(I now realize i was hallucinating.) I got kicked out of my house and moved to my sisters for a couple years. There i made no friends felt terrible anxiety around strangers and got very depressed. Eventually I stopped smoking for a while thinking that the weed was making me delusional. Things got somewhat better. I no longer had delusions. But was still very anxious and depressed. Well I returned to my home town 2 years later. I had promised when i left I would smoke with my told buddies upon my return. So I did, and my hallucinations were much worse this time.. It got to the point where i was hearing voices seeing things and getting messages from the tv.. full blown schizophrenia symptoms. I got checked into the mental clinic a few times. So… I stopped smoking weed after a few relapses and eventually stopped getting treated for schizophrenia and was treated for anxiety and depression.. medications .. therapy. st johns wort and many other natural remedies. Nothing worked. Now im in the military about 4 years from the initial onset. Tried more things… diet exercise more presciptions, meditation.Still anxious, although ive been working on it.. I can fake a little bit of confidence when trying to give a class. Single (surprized?) and still depressed.No real friends ..they all ditched me once they found out i was nuts. So I dont have much of a life at all. I’ve been wondering all this time What it could be. depression causing anxiety? Social anxiety that causes depression? Thyroid problem? Was it the drugs? The stress? here are my symptoms..
depressed most of the time, socially anxious, racing thoughts ..lazy-tired all of the time. sleep all day. When I become anxious i get the racing heart, sweaty palms, trouble breathing correctly, tremble, racing thoughts, difficulty concentrating, poor short term momory (but very good long term for some reason)..
so thats that… Any one have any insight for me? Anything related to my story maybe?
Man… I dont wanna have to put myself down like a sick dog. lol
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definitly get your thyroid checked, but also get checked for your B-12 level. I have fought depression for many yrs and finially one day my dr decided to test my B-12 level. I didn’t have any in my system. After taken weekly b-12 shots for the last 2 yrs, I have no signs of depression and have been able to stay off my meds for over a yr now. It’s wonderful to know that it was a low vitiam that was causing it. Have yours checked out, Along with all the other vitiam’s your suppose to have in your system to make sure they are at appropriate levels and not really low.
I don’t think anyone on here will be able to diagnose you, you should consult a professional and get some help. I know you might be fed up with treatment after treatment that doesnt work (arent we all!) but what other option is there? Don’t give up, eventually you will find something that works for you.
I have had depression, anxiety and hallucinations and that sort of thing, it was well treated by medication and so far hallucinations hasnt come back (i’m only 21).
Your symptoms sound like its mostly depression and anxiety, maybe even panic disorder. These are all things that you can recover from =) Its also important to remember that hallucinations dont always mean you’re psychotic or schizophrenic, it can be a result of high anxiety. Having said that, obviously I dont really know enough about you to be able to say.
In other words, go see someone who can really help, and good luck!
well u cant help what happens in ur past being in high school a little frustrating for me as well i mean they look at all the bad stuff about u and what u do/did and they wont make you forget whats wrong with u. That’s y its called life to tell u the truth, some people want u to be scum and have a bad life. Drugs can be a big part of ur depression getting happy first time u take it in then the next its like everything around u isn’t real. Don’t take drugs anymore prove to society ur a strong man and u’ll be in a big place .and all that bull u were going through in the past is not for ur future! Be good out their in this world and i wish the best for you coming from a person who was in that place but got away quickly.
“anxious i get the racing heart, sweaty palms, trouble breathing correctly, tremble, racing thoughts” indicate panic attacks, for which, treatments are shown in section 8, at There are many things you can do to help treat your depression.
Moderate exercise for at least 20 - 30 minutes, daily, and up to an hour. Brisk walking is good, and try to be mindful of the feeling your foot makes as it hits the ground: it is a relaxation technique. Also use daily, one of the relaxation methods in sections 2, 2.c, 2.i, or 11, and/or yoga, Tai Chi, and/or the EFT, in sections 2.q, 2.o, and section 53, at ezy-build, whichever works best for you.
Take 4 Omega 3 fish oil supplements, daily: (certified free of mercury) it is best if consumed with an antioxidant, such as an orange, or grapefruit, or their FRESHLY SQUEEZED juice. If vitamin E is added, it should be certified as being 100% from natural sources, or it may be synthetic: avoid it. Also take a vitamin B complex which is certified as being 100% of natural origin; a deficiency in vitamin B9 (folic acid, or folate) is known to cause depression. Around 30% - 40% of depressed people have low vitamin B12 levels. Depressed females using the contraceptive pill may benefit from vitamin B6 supplements.
Occupational therapy (keeping busy allows little time for unproductive introspection, and keeps mental activity out of less desirable areas of the brain). As options, if desired, either SAMe, or Inositol (from vitamin and health food stores, some supermarkets, or mail order: view section 55 at ezy-build ).
Initially, at least, some form of counselling, preferably either Cognitive Behavio(u)ral Therapy, or Rational Emotive Behavio(u)ral Therapy. Co-counselling is shown in the first 3 pages of section 2, or online therapy, or even talking with someone you feel comfortable with, and a much more detailed post is on page R. Self confidence is addressed in section 38, and social anxiety in section 9. Long term use of marijuana is known to permanently affect short term memory, adversely, and shrink the emotional centres of the brain. View section 40, on schizophreniform disorders, and try the alternative treatment for 6 months. AVOID DRUGS! See section 52.